Changes

There's been a lot of changes happening in my life since the latter part of 2011. Change is constant but not easy all the time.
I changed my current location for a number of reasons, but mainly to be with my long time partner. From our previous status of Long Distance Relationship to a much more formal,more mature, and more committed status... Engaged. It's a major change for both of us. Before I came here, he was not so keen in sharing his privacy. On the contrary, I like being with a lot of people, and letting others help me with chores. Presently, there's just the two of us, R and K, adjusting and discovering a lot of things with each other. We argue, cry, and laugh at our differences but our values are the same, which makes us stronger as an individual and as a team. I love him more than ever.

Like a pebble thrown on a lake, it caused a ripple. I had to resign from the hospital where I used to work, relocate and find a job suitable for me. Luckily, I got accepted on my first interview and worked just after 2 weeks of settling down. I am fortunate enough to be accepted right away even without an Australian certificate for that kind of job nor experience whatsoever. I am not yet registered to do my profession from my homecountry. I am still working on it, and hoping that everything will fit just as God would want it to be. I am praying that God will give us more strength, more patience, and more wisdom in doing everything what we have to do.

By next month, I will start writing my name long. Status will be changed as our families would stand with us to witness our union. FB status won't be changed yet until the latter part of the year. I'm excited. I'm nervous. I'm hopeful that God would bless our union all the time.

On my view regarding life, it definitely changed. I'm having a hard time accepting that an individual with a very healthy lifestyle could be susceptible to a disease that I just studied in books. Why did this happen to a very good person? A person who not only inspires a lot of people, but also helps in a lot of ways than imagined. Sometimes, I think life is so unfair for not doing this to bad people instead. But at the end of the day, I myself would have to admit that those people who hardens the life of other people are still needed to make a necessary change to the individuals who are affected by it. We all have a purpose in life, and it's true that in this life, we're just here temporarily. I still hate though that the person we all love would have to undergo it at such an early stage in life.

Anyway, heads up and cheer up! We all have our own fate. I still need to cringe some more for other changes but still praying and hoping that I may be able to adjust well to it. Enjoy and C'est la vie! :D

LITERA2 Quiz

I was trying to find an emblem of my alma mater to be used in my scrapbook when i got my hands on this small booklet. It was my LITERA2 quiz booklet. I remember how much I enjoyed this subject because my creativity emerged and I do not feel pressured at all. In this booklet I wrote my quiz, which as I recall was to create a story with some fixed character. Here is what I wrote:

The Story of Magulaman's Tragedy

When we were little, Masago was usually the popular one. Mother said the mole in her left eye made her more beautiful than I am. People would notice her for her talent, beauty, and skill. I look like her, but I do not have a mole like her.

When we were 18, I met Takejiro. He was older than I am but he treats me as an equal. We hang out together and shared secrets which I wasn't able to do with Masago.

One fine day, Takejiro went to our house and found out that I have a twin sister. While I was out, Masago entertained him. Doing her charmed spells, Takejiro fell for her. They were married when we got 19 and decided to live in another place.

The night before they left, I tied Masago in our favorite 'secret' hiding place. I put a mole in the corner of my left eye and wore the lilac shirt just like Masago. I was thrilled of my little evil plan. Finally, I will be able to be with Takejiro in a place where there's no Masago.

Nobody noticed the change. Mother taught that Magulaman, I, was away in my own adventure. She didn't care about me anyway.

While we were off to Yamashina stage road to rest for a while, a man wearing a grayish-blue silk kimono approached us and introduced himself as Tajomaru. He was well-built and was taller than Takejiro. I noticed that he kept on looking at me, at first on my face, but later on, on my chest.

I was frightened, and I let myself under Takejiro's arms. I was comforted. I ignored the man and just relaxed, thinking that tomorrow would be a new beginning for me and Takejiro. I'm going to be his lovely wife, as she thought with a smile on her face.

But suddenly, Takejiro sat upright. I awoke with a start, and realized that Tajomaru had something behind Takejiro's back. I was confused and restless. I started pleading. With a grim face, he told me that it was I that he like.

I stalled and bargained on him. I told him that if he would let go of my husband, I will go with him. He thought it was a good idea. And so he tied first Takejiro and started walking towards me. I had a knife beside me and used it to threaten him, to kill Tajomaru if necessary. He kept on chasing me, rounding the grove till I got back to the bamboo and cedars where Takejiro was.

He was standing in front of Takejiro, insulting me. Telling me that he's gonna cut my husband's thing, before he would rape me. My blood rose to my head, and lunged on him with the knife on my hand. But the man was quick enough to duck on the bushes.

The knife landed on Takejiro's chest. I killed him. I killed the one who truly appreciates me. I killed my husband. I killed Masago's husband. I killed myself. (violent sob in the end)

------I got the highest score of 4 for this quiz... with my professor's comment "dramatic =) ". It was refreshing to find a piece like that hehe.

In the Woods of Forbes

Almost one year ago we transferred to a rented unit, 36 square meters big, at the 2nd floor of tower 6. It was during my birthday that we were able to view the place and decided to get it from the broker. I've been with 5 beautiful ladies as housemates, and each one has their own reason for wanting to rent the place, mostly because we all live far from our present workplace. A is the big sister to all of us, but she's also one big contributor to why we were able to rent the place. It was her bank account that we used to pay the unit. She's the bubbly friend we all want, a girlfriend material, but sadly keeps on meeting the wrong guy who gives her heartache. Hopefully the present one won't break her heart. K, that's me, is the second one chronologically speaking. I'm just a simple girl with simple needs. Kt is our most pure hearted housemate. She's so in love with Jesus, and she guides me spiritually. C is our model housemate. If she really likes something or someone, she'll go gaga over it. I just hope she finds happiness with the one she likes. T is our babaeng bakla housemate. She's got a lot of stories to tell and you can't help but just laugh out loud with it. Lastly, the princess N. What she likes, she'll definitely get.

It was a slow start at first, as we adjust to our financial commitment. There were times that we want to just give up the place especially when some of us were transferred to QC and we have no other choice but to pay more to compensate for it. Until we agreed on paying the same thing until we finish the contract whether or not we're staying there.

Lots of memories were created there. More happy moments, thank God! That's why it's giving us a hard time to move out completely. Aside from that, there's just me, C, and N who's willing to rent still. We only have 2 more days to completely vacate the unit.. and we still don't have a place to stay. We're still hoping for the best. Wherever it is, I'm sure God will approve of it. ^__^

Something to smile about

Here's a short list of what makes me smile and laugh:

1. Going home at our Ancestral home in Tondo
2. Eating together in our small dining area, even if it means others would have to stand
3. Listening to Mom, Ate Mi, and cousins' funny experiences during the week
4. Chatting with Ham and talking bout our dreams and funny stories
5. Going out with friends especially when I rarely see them
6. Finding a stash of money hidden in a pocket, bag, or envelopes in my cabinet, especially at times when my ATM's completely depleted
7. Brisked walking in the morning just so I wouldn't be late for work
8. My Time in is just 2-4 minutes before my scheduled time
9. When I see someone not wearing socks on their sneakers while working out
10. When the train would arrive just after i got in at the station
11. When in a rush hour and I still get to sit inside the train
12. When I feel that I completely evacuated my bowels ^____^
13. After a very rigorous work out
14. When I feel the warm sunlight in the morning
15. When I feel warm even on cold airconditioned room
16. When someone's telling jokes even if it's corny
17. If I accomplish something worthwhile during my day
18. Meeting and talking to new people
19. When I see nice art and photography
20. Whenever I hear a heartwarming sharing about God's Word

Running for fun

People these days are fascinated with running, including me. You would see hordes of men and women in their singlets and running shoes, running around the vicinity of Global City. They are the ones who are concerned to get fit and be healthy. Curious at first but eventually became a habitual participant of any fun run or marathon. Running as an exercise, thus became a trend.

I started joining this when I met my Sensei at my former alma mater. He invited me to become a part of One La Salle Fun Run. It was a running event organized to raised funds for charity. I chose 5k for my category. I invited my friend Melai and she invited her brother as well. I brought my Mom along, but she didn't join us hehe. It was a great 1st time experience, having to push myself to finish the race even if I really want to give up.

My next run was in Philstar. Ai invited me for this event. I was registered for a 5k but i chose the 10k route instead, just so I could be in the same route with that of Ai and T. It was a great feeling having run the entire course even without proper training and even with slow record. I was glad still that I finished it and I contented myself with freebies and picture taking with my friends.

My recent run was in MOA. It's a run mostly for call center agents. Ai invited me here as well. It was my first run at night. My 1st time also to be registered for 10k. I came from night shift then, slept for 3 hours then went to Makati Med to visit my friend's dad who was admitted the day before that. I was kinda hesitant if I'll be able to finish it, given my lack of sleep and lack of preparation. But I did, thank God! It was not easy for me. At first I was at the front of the starting line, after a kilometer or so, I was falling back and behind all those who were running. Slowly, but yes I finished it at 1:20.

I'm looking forward to joining fun run, or serious marathon in the near future.

Personally, running has made me more dedicated to what I'm doing and in disciplining myself.

So I'm starting to prepare myself for upcoming events, and I do hope I'll be fit when that time comes. ^__^

Death of the Endless Family

A different depiction of Death of the Endless Family.
It was digitally drawn by Jerome Jagovia, an artist for SLMC-GC (DCA).

Just in time for my present state... Dying. Emotionally...

For Once

For once, I want to be the girl
who's being pursued,
not the one who's pursuing.
To be truly loved
not because I'm the only option
but because I truly matter.

The start of the year was sad for me. H went back to OZ a day before my Lolo passed away. I've been with my family most of the time during those days, sharing our loss and renewing our bond with each other. However, I wasn't able to manage my time well. One very important person felt neglected during those times.

Am I sorry? Yes, for not being a supergirl who can be there in times of need.


I feel trapped in a haze of uncertainty. Unsure of what the future would bring. Afraid of what the present has to offer. There'll be change. That I'm sure of.

I am tired of always adjusting. I am tired of not asserting myself. I am tired of always being the one to say sorry. I am tired of not speaking out my thoughts.

But I love him so much.......that, I'm not tired of.

Space mode

Aaargh. I'm now experiencing the "space" Mode again... and as usual.. the recipient role again. I'm just not used to this. I hope H will feel much better soon. Aaargh. hard hard hard.