Thursday, March 30, 2006

Sx w/o Dx

Just as I thought, I didn’t have a great sleep last night. I suffered a temporary insomnia and an orthopnea. I forced myself to sleep after CSI: Miami but my body and mind just won’t give in and my breathing wasn’t good as well. I was in the brink of panic when I realized that I really should calm myself because this was one of the situation I learned in HC and NCM. I tried the pursed-lip technique. Inhaling from my nose and exhaling through pursed lips slowly. It was helpful, not only did it calm and control my breathing but it also quite lulls me to sleep. I stayed on semi-fowler’s position while I watched an old movie in CinemaOne and reflecting on the things that have happened that night until I slipped in a deep slumber…finally.

Wednesday, March 29, 2006

Bad night

I think it would be awfully hard to sleep tonight. Mom’s not here and I think Ham is mad at me. Aaargh!

Saturday, March 18, 2006

happy list

See i was right... I should just keep my mouth shut if i am pissed off..
1. The door was locked even if i left an instruction not to.

2. I am always "on call" even if im tired, hungry, or mad. I have no right to decline. I need to be patient.

3. I hate parasites!

because there are more interesting and happy thoughts to think about like...

1. Talking to him over the phone while he's dining out with his friends.

2. Old friends updating me with their life.

3. Good news such as graduation of my 2 doc friends.

4. Former-boss-turned-friend-with-her-gf meeting on April before they go to Aussie for good.

5. Thinking of appropriate birthday gift for Ham, coz im running out of time.

6. School days will soon be over.

7. Thinking of ways on how to lose inches from my waist without the hassle of dieting.

8. Thinking of good places to visit this summer without spending so much money (im thinking bout Bangkok, Singapore, or HK...LOL!)

9. .....

10. ......

There, mas marami yung happy thoughts di ba? Ayan, I feel good na. ^____^

Free fish

Would the animal advocates hate me if I want to kill one of my aquarium fishes? I don’t like the way the Tilapia kills my other fishes, or maybe I don’t like to see them suffer. It strikes them fast and hard leaving them with short and torn tail and incomplete scales. Though I don’t like my goldfish that much, still I was offended when it was killed yesterday along with the other 2 black bulging-eye-fish. There’s four more of them left, the goldfish, the tilapia look-alike but with some orange & edema on its face, the tilapia, and the janitor fish. We’re actually waiting for it all to die, (how cruel noh?) because Kim and I wanted small fishes instead. How about if we trade it in with our fishes in a pet shop? Pwede kaya yun?

Thursday, March 16, 2006

Sing me a song

Somehow this song became meaningful in my life...

Stephen Speaks
Passenger Seat


I look at her and have to smile
As we go driving for a while
Looking nowhere in the open window of my car
And as we go the traffic lights
Watch them glimmer in her eyes
In the darkness of the evening

And I've got all that I need
Right here in the passenger seat
Oh and I can't keep my eyes on the road
Knowing that she's inches from me

We stop to get something to drink
My mind pounds and I can't think
Scared to death to say i love her
Then a moon peeks from the clouds
Hear my heart that beats so loud
Try to tell her simply

That I've got all the I need
Right here in the passenger seat
Oh and I can't keep my eyes on the road
Knowing that she's inches from me

Oh and I've got all the I need
Right here in the passenger seat
Oh and I can't keep my eyes on the road
Knowing that she's inches from me

Oh and I know this love grow


However, whether it'd be Barney, Chopsuey, Linkin Park, or Sinatra's, im sure it would still be appreciated...

Monday, March 13, 2006

Good Omens

I've been looking for a copy of this book...

*picture from amazon.com

for a month. "Out of stock" sabi sa Powerbooks, sa Different Bookstore, or even sa Natio.

Thanks to Hamkin... who searched 2 bookstores for this and sent it back home thru Hans. Mwah! Salamat salamat hamkin for the book and I'll take care of it. *wink*

Make it a frap!

Ham once said that I've got an explosive personality. You'll never know when i'll suddenly explode when under pressure. It is through him, through the experiences that test my patience, and all those involved (family and friends *ehem* sensya na jebs), that taught me on how to handle it graciously. I am still learning though, and i'm trying to fight the urge to unleash my stinging fury.

I realized that it is not an excuse to snap on anyone just because I have a problem like the ones in telenovela. Anyway, this forwarded email came from my tita in Germany, and it's something worth reading... and hopefully i could be like the coffee.^__^


An Analogy - A carrot, an egg and a cup of coffee...


A young woman went to her mother and told her about her life and how things were so hard for her. She did not know how she was going to make it and wanted to give up. She was tired of fighting and struggling. It seemed as though just as one problem was solved, a new one arose.



Her mother took her to the kitchen. She filled three pots with water and placed each on a high fire. Soon the pots came to a boil.

In the first, she placed carrots, in the second she placed eggs, and in the last she placed ground coffee beans. She let them sit and boil, without saying a word.



In about twenty minutes she turned off the burners. She fished the carrots out and placed them in a bowl. She pulled the eggs out and placed them in a bowl. Then she ladled the coffee out and placed it in a bowl.



Turning to her daughter, she asked, "Tell me what you see."

Carrots, eggs, and coffee," she replied.



Her mother brought her closer and asked her to feel the carrots. She did, and noted that they were soft. The mother then asked the daughter to take an egg and break it.

After pulling off the shell, she observed the hard boiled egg.





Finally, the mother asked the daughter to sip the coffee. The daughter smiled as she tasted its rich aroma.

The daughter then asked, "What does it mean, mother?"



Her mother explained that each of these objects had faced the same adversity: boiling water. Each reacted differently.

The carrot went in strong, hard, and unrelenting. However, after being subjected to the boiling water, it softened and became weak. The egg had been fragile. Its thin outer shell had protected its liquid interior, but after sitting through the boiling water, its

inside became hardened.



The ground coffee beans were unique, however. After they were in the boiling water, they had changed the water.



Which are you?" she asked her daughter.



"When adversity knocks on your door, how do you respond? Are you a carrot, an egg or a coffee bean?"



Think of this: Which am I?



Am I the carrot that seems strong, but with pain and adversity do I wilt and become soft and lose my strength?



Am I the egg that starts with a malleable heart, but changes with the heat? Did I have a fluid spirit, ... but after a death, a breakup, a financial hardship or some other trial, have I become hardened and stiff? Does my shell look the same, but on the inside am I bitter and tough with a stiff spirit and a hardened heart?



Or am I like the coffee bean? The bean actually changes the hot water, the very circumstance that brings the pain. When the water gets hot, it releases the fragrance and flavor. If you are like the bean, when things are at their worst, you get better and change the situation around you.



When the hour is the darkest and trials are their greatest, do you elevate yourself to another level? How do you handle adversity?

Are you a carrot, an egg or a coffee bean?



The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything; they just make the most of everything that comes along their way. The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past; you can't go forward in life until you let go of your past

failures and heartaches.

Tuesday, March 07, 2006

Sacerdotal Anniversary

Yesterday was my priest uncle's Sacerdotal anniversary. He's already 19 years as a priest. We had mass and the usual kainan afterwards. Happy Anniversary Ninong!

Men and women in orange

I wanted to post something regarding our experience with the F***** (im not cursing, that's the initial of that company) last sunday,who tried to lure us to buy a 33k water purifier made in korea, but im sleepy na... pero sige na nga.

We just finished buying groceries in Robinson's Tutuban. Sabi ni Mommy sa Prime Block na lang kami dumaan papuntang sakayan ng MCU. Nang nasa bridge na kami from the Tutuban Mall ay maraming taong naka black pants and orange polo with blazer ang nasa daan at nangungumbinseng magpa "free" massage. Si mommy ang nasa unahan ko, and since mahilig talaga yun magpamasahe, pumayag kaagad. Nagulat na lang ako nang pumapasok na sya sa loob. Yung store ay nasa tapat lang ng David's salon sa prime block. Dinala kami sa loob at pinaupo siya sa massage chair, ako naman ay sinuotan ng parang pang wrestling na belt at itoy pinaaandar. Pang-relax ung kay mommy, yung sa akin pang pa-slim daw. Habang ginagawa nila ito ay tina-try nilang mahuli ang loob ko, dahil masyadong mabait ang mommy ko at madaling ma-please.

According to them, their company only started in 2003? I'm not sure with the date but they're fairly new daw. According to them, they have branches in Harrison and even Podium, and their reason for letting us give that service is just to be given a chance to introduce their product which consists of a massage chair that costs 89,000Php, a vacuum cleaner (19,000), microwave (20,000+), purifier (32,900), etc. Most of the appliance are made in korea and japan with hi-tech capabilities daw.

After introducing the products they (around 5 of them) let my mom pick a prize, and when they opened the paper... they all shouted and congratulated us. I was baffled, because in a business setting, they shouldn't act like that. They were literally shouting making me all the more doubtful and suspicious but im still waiting for their ultimate goal.

According to them, my mom is so lucky coz she picked a free microwave, the one that costs 20+k, without even buying anything (haller?!!, kung sa groceries nga na may binili ka, ang kuripot pa ng pick-a-prize promo nila eh, yun pang ala ka binili). Somebody went in, picked the prize and was shouting again and congratulating us that the manager was so kind enough to have given us a more expensive gift which is the air cooler.

They were all talking all at the same time. Someone would talk to mom and someone would talk to me. Basta ang gulo nila tlaga, nakakairita.

Eto na, biglang naghahanap na sila ng credit card and ID. Nag-intervene na ako. Sabi ko: "Bakit? Akala ko ba free gift yan, bkit may babayaran?". Tapos sinasabi nila bigla na kung may bilhin daw kaming isang appliance dun 2 appliance ang kasama dahil nga daw "nanalo" si mommy and "swerte" daw siya. Pero pinapakita ko na tlaga na iritable na ako at di ko gusto ang nangyayari dahil obvious naman na yung 3 appliance na yun ay mahigit 33k at may tubo pa sila.

PUtik talaga, di ko na kaya yung situation ng ako lang. "I need back up", I told myself. That's the time that I called Ate Mi or Kim to persuade Mom not to fall for that scheme. Thank God, she listened to them. Gusto niya daw talaga yung mga appliance eh, and she'll be the one to pay for it naman daw. Still it's not worth it.. and I really hate schemes like that.

Pero buti na lang ok na. Kaya kung mapapadaan kayo sa prime block at di maiiwasang dumaan sa part ng david's salon, ingat kayo sa mga taong naka orange na nagtra-trabaho sa Fili**, yun na PO.

Sunday, March 05, 2006

Party for Ham

I got a mail from Ai, my bestfriend in College. I'm glad she had the time to email me Rod's despedida pictures. Thanks ai, mwah!


(L-R)Kae, Rody, Paul, Ai, Sir Cesar, and Bri

Sir Cesar was right, I think all of us have changed since our training days in Karate. All of us were "payatot" that time, plus with all the changes in haircut and physique. Now, I've got longer hair and pimples, Ai have braces and glasses, Paul sports a new haircut (he's definitely more macho now), Bri with his toned muscles makes him more pogi, Sir Cesar still the same (gwapo pa rin and may gf na haha), and Rody according to Sir doesn't change (I wonder if it's a complement or what, what do you think Ham?hehe). I think it's a complement. Mwah!



That group was taken by Owee, and it's for the Annual ata. Anyway, Ai and Rody weren't there I don't know why. Sir Cesar has a solo pic eh kaya wala sya dyan. Cute namin, har-har-har-de-har

Sunday baking

Last Sunday and today, Ate Mi, Geri, and I tried baking. Last Sunday was macaroons. It was our first time to do it together, and with the presence of distractions everywhere and lack of organized preparation, our macaroons didn’t turn out right.

Today we decided to use all the left over ingredients from last week by baking butter cookies. I’m not fond of plain cookies especially butter flavors, but I was amazed when we tasted the cookies. Yep! It was great. I’m glad it turned out right.

We’re planning to do it every Sunday so that our cooking and baking skills would improve, and hopefully by the end of the year, I could finally bake and cook for my love ones… especially Hamkin.

Next week, we’ll try baked macaroni… hmm… yummy!

If ever someone would read this, and knows a great recipe *for beginners, I would really appreciate if you would share it. ^___^

Ciao!

Friday, March 03, 2006

10 ways

My 10 ways to relieve stress

10. Work-out sa fitness. 30min na cardio, arm and thigh exercise.

9. Sauna after work out.

8. 1 hr. massage kahit saang massage parlor.

7. Guilty pleasure with choco, ice cream, coffe jelly, or mocha frap.

6. Shopping for purontong and cute tee.

5. Meet up with HS and College best friends.

4. Time for myself. Read a really good book. Neil Gaiman or any international best seller book.

3. Harutan with my family; with Kim, Mommy, Ate Mi, Geri, Alj, Achu, and Papa.

2. Chat with Ham, my boyfriend, best friend, and lover all rolled into one. Just watching his video, playing his piano piece makes my heart beat fast and slow at the same time.

1. Commune with God. He knows everything, and i cannot deny it.

stress sa buhay

Masama ang simula ng araw ko.
Wala kaming tubig sa bahay dahil ninakaw ang kuntador ng tubig namin.
Kulang ang tulog ko dahil kinailangan pa naming hulihin ang mickey mouse.
Gusto ko ng lumipat ng bahay, pero saan?

May defense pa kami at mga unit exams na kelangang paghandaan.
Hindi nga kami ang nauna sa defense pero syempre may kaba.
Alam kong di ako makakakuha ng impormasyon
ukol sa pwedeng itanong,
kaya’t kelangng paghandaan.
Anong magagawa ko, yun ang dapat?

Ang taba ng mukha ko, ng braso at pigi ko.
Ang dami kong pimples.
Ang dry na ng hair ko.
Anong dapat kong gawin?

Ang dami kong pinoproblema.
Ang dami kong pinagsasayangan ng panahon.
Munting bagay na wala naming halaga sa totoong kahulugan ng buhay.

Buti na lang nabasa ko ang email ng isang kaibigan na kahit forwarded lang ay nakatulong sa akin upang kumalma ang aking nararamdaman.
Sabi sa email…

O, bakit ka na naman na-i-istress? Did you wake up on the wrong side of the bed?
Meron ka bang deadline na i-bi-beat ngayong araw na ito?
It's important to understand stress before we can effectively manage it
kaya Stress ang pag-uusapan natin ngayon.
Ayon sa mga scientists mayroong dalawang uri ng stress.
Eustress and Distress.
Eustress is positive stress. Ito ang nararamdaman ng isang dalaga
kapag dumarating na ang kanyang manliligaw at may daladalang flowers.
Eustress din ang tawag sa stress na nararanasan ng mga nagwo- work-out
when they are doing their exercises.
Ang mga athletes, pagkatapos na ma-stress ang kanilang muscles,
they rest para ma-repair ang kanilang muscles.
Kapag hindi sila nagpahinga, the stressed muscles will be injured.
When injury happens, yan ang distress.
Distress is the negative side of stress.
Nakakaramdam ka na ng sakit ng ulo, pagsakit ng tiyan,
hindi na makatulog, di pa makakain.
Distress ang uri ng stress na nagreresulta sa kung ano-anong sakit
tulad ng hypertension, minsan nga ay emotional breakdown pa.
Ano ba ang pwede nating gawin para ang stress natin ay hindi maging distress? Famous author and inspirational speaker,
Dr. John Maxwell has the following suggestions:
Don't be overly sensitive to criticism.
Tanggapin na natin ang katotohanang hindi natin kayang i-please ang lahat ng tao.
Talagang mayroong hindi aayon sa iyo kahit na napaka-noble
ng iyong mga intentions and motives.
So when you receive criticisms, take it constructively kung sensible ang criticism.
If you think the criticism is not objective, huwag na lang pansinin at ng hindi ka ma-distress.
Don't take too much pride in your achievements.
Ang pride ay parang uling, ginagatungan niyan ang distress.
Ang taong proud ay mas lalong nadi-distress dahil masyado niyang iniingatan
ang kanyang achievement at accomplishment.
Minsan nga our achievements hinder us from growing and learning
kasi sinasabi natin sa ating sarili, aba may na-accomplish na ko.
Mas mahusay ako kaysa sa iba, hindi na nila ko pwedeng turuan.
Ang lungkot ng buhay kapag naging ganyan ang attitude natin.
Don't harbor jealousy over the achievement of others.
Ang taong mainggitin madalas ding madistress,
kasi nga totoo namang mayroong mas higit kaysa sa atin.
Natural ang iba ay maaaring magkaroon ng achievements na wala tayo di ba.
Instead of being jealous or envious,
let's learn to rejoice in the successes of others.
Malay mo malibre ka pa bogchi dahil nakikigalak ka sa kanilang tagumpay, di ba?
Don't focus on your weaknesses and inadequacies.
Ang sugat kapag mas lalo mong ginalaw mas lalong lalala at baka maimpeksyon.
The more you focus on your weaknesses and inadequacies
the bigger the tendency of wallowing in self-pity.
While it is important to acknowledge your inadequacies,
it is helpful to focus on your strengths and capabilities.
One effective way of fighting distress is by counting our blessings - the good things which life brings.
When we have grateful hearts,
we will always be reminded that we are too blessed to be stressed!
Someone wrote that
"The shortest distance between a problem and a solution is the distance between your knees and the floor.
The one who kneels to the Lord can stand up to anything."


May mga bagay kasi na hindi na dapat pinagtutuunan ng sobrang panahon.
Ienjoy ang buhay!
Magpasalamat sa Panginoon!
Minsan mukhang mababaw lang, pero hindi.

Pero manalig ka.
Dahil kahit may mga pagsubok, kahit may mas malalim pa na problema,
Ito ang kanyang paraan para ituro sa’yo na kakayanin mo ito.
At nariyan siya upang ihulma ka sa dapat na maging ikaw ayon sa kanyang Plano.