Retreat 2008

I didn't join the retreat this year, but instead went to my lolo's house in Cainta with Mom. I don't think i missed that much though...

I spent time with my bulilit cousins. Me and my 6-yr-old cousin fetched her grade 2 sister Charlene from school, driving the pedicab! Nice, at least i can drive that properly. After unloading her super heavy bag at home we went to see our other cousins Maybel, April, and Jun who are all under 10 yrs old, and who just lived nearby. They are so hyperactive and wanting to have their turn in the pedicab or the bicycle, which Cheska brought with her. Actually I did envy their prowess in riding the bicycle, for up until now I haven't learn how to do it.

My lolo, still in his bed, have sharper memory than lola who's got a mild alzheimer's disease. Lolo however, became considerably thinner, with his bones outlining his frame. But he still have a good grip, and I like the feel of it everytime I hold his hand. Strong grip, just like his will to live.

Tita Josie, Daddy's older sister will be coming back to Germany later tonight. She, Tita Ching, and Tita Vigie arrived here this month to visit lolo. Though Tita Ching went back to London and Tita Vigie to Oman a week earlier. Tito Eddie, the eldest might come home too this February, coming from Canada. It'll be just Daddy who won't be coming home anytime soon.

There was a bit of a melodrama before we left Cainta. Tita Jo's reminding me and Mom that we are loved, and that I'm blessed for having a great Mom like my Mom. And I agree to that. I'm really blessed for having a family like mine. Not perfect, but just right. ^__^ Thank God for that.

leakage

In highschool, cheating was unfamiliar.
In college, it was a taboo.
In nursing, it's being resourceful.

tsk tsk...mga kabataan talaga ngayon. ^^

Sunday

A very nice day today. Spent morning till evening with Ham online, chat with webcam. It's definitely a quality time together.

With the end of Daylight Saving Time, soon, chat will be more frequent. Unlike now we could only chat on Thursdays and weekends... that is if I don't have reviews.

I had a nice time with you ham. See you again on Thursday. ^___^

Commitment

ISL or Intermediate Sign Language class already started yesterday. Too bad I didn't enroll. Ate Mimi enrolled though, and was very excited on the first day. She even started using SL again during Mass whenever she's not playing the Organ. And since I'm the only one she can communicate with it, I had no choice but to decipher the signs again. I had a hard time remembering it, nakakainis tlaga. I really need to practice it consistently if I really want to be good in it.

I realized that wanting to learn SL is different from committing yourself in the Ministry. Commitment means investing time and effort. It's not solely for yourself but for those who would benefit after you were able to learn it.

It started though with the desire. I had that when I started with the BSL. But alas, right now, I committed myself to other important things. And I think these things demand more time and prioritization.

I'm not a Superwoman or even Darna. I can't do it all. I need to focus more on these things first... But I will come back and commit myself again to the ministry.

Creative shot

Oh ok.. there's one picture that i really like. Probably because my face was partly hidden and that the shot was not a close-up hehe. I do like it's natural side, and brings more of myself... i don't smile that much. ^___^

Ham said that this one is a lot better than my plastered smile from my formal grad pix. ^___^

I really want to learn guitar, but I really can't memorize the chords. Also, I don't have much patience to sit down and self-learn. That's why I opted to go for that look in my creative shot... something i want to do in the future.

Grad pic

i DON'T LIKE my grad pic. Too made up and waaah... like what ham said.. i'm just not photogenic. Maybe that's why I just like to be behind the camera... capturing other people's moments than being shot at.

I like my creative shot though... coz my face is partly hidden and that i wasn't looking directly at the camera..

7 in 1

There's this new coffee brand that promotes their 7 in 1 mix. The one with agaricus mushroom a rich source of antioxidant; a korean ginseng that according to them improves mental performance, alertness, and cognitive functions; spirulina that provides essential amino acids; reishi that lowers blood pressure; coffee; cream; and of course sugar.

Being a coffee drinker, I tried it out yesterday. And actually love the taste. I consumed 2 sachets (meant for 4 servings) during breakfast and 1 sachet again in the evening.

My mind was practically alert all night. My lids are heavy and yet my mind was soo alert... I hate the feeling... but not the coffee.

And so for tonight, I opted for milk instead, and hopefully have my 8 hours of sleep (one of my resolutions).

Neotericus

My College Friends at Ham's Tagaytay Home.
(L-R) Brian, Ann, Kim, Paul, Ham, and me

Finally, I got to meet them again. I hope they still had a Merry Christmas ^___^

We stayed in Greenhills for 10 hours, to meet up with his HS friends (Jody, Marvin, Scott, and Hans) and to buy PSP as his Xmas gift.










Meeting up with Ham's friends for dinner
(L-R) me, ham, Kelvin, Ralph, Angel, Arianne, and Carl

2008, a new year, a better me

Whoa! Another year has passed. I got older I must admit... with a lot of things that has happened in my 2007, I can't help but grow physically and mentally.

So for 2008, I got to start the year right. I eliminated some of my excess baggage: let go of worries and anxieties, regrets, asked for God's forgiveness and those I hurt, and forgave myself for committing mistakes.

I am not perfect, but for my 2008... I intend to become a better person each day.

No promises... but I'm gonna do it little by little.

To my friends, who have always been there during my ups and downs... thank you soo much. You know who you are. If you know my deepest darkest secrets, consider yourself as my friend. Sorry if I offended you at times, but all the same thanks for being a great friend.

To my family, I know I have caused you some disappointments in life... but thanks for still supporting me. I know I've got lots of room for improvement...I hope in time I could give you something to be proud of. Thank you for giving your best to raise me well..

To Hamkin, we've been together for years now, but almost half of it are spent in our cyberworld. We date online, we sometimes quarrel online, and we spend quality time online... A lot would disagree and even discourage our kind of relationship. But there were some who still support us. It's not easy. There are hardships along the way: there are temptations, extra curricular activities, conflicts bet. our own family. But because of that hardships, it made me a better person. And it only made me more convinced to become a better one for you... I love you. I hope to spend a lifetime with you.